Short of words!!
I wish I could have had better words. I wish I could have sung the songs, songs which when mix with music, probably would have represented my feelings in a better way.
We are going through such a sensitive phase of life where we need to be strong, to face our problems bravely but at the same time, push the other person to move or rather, walk along. In the life, I would like to say thanks to god to bring up the most challenging circumstances of at least a decade. Considering this beautiful age range from 20-30 where it is so hard to balance life’s all aspect: Love, fun, bad time, career, family, friends , health ..endless list!! But how awesome it would be to have them all but still keep moving, leaving aside the bad situations and picking up the good one. Life is never going to be same, we can enjoy or we can be sad, life does not care. We try to full fill our obligations but sometimes forget to see what is never going to come again. ‘The Time’ and "People"
The time which could have been equally heavenly and wonderful as a feeling to be with God. If someone says that he/she is never going to get tough time in life except the present one, I am even ready to be slave to that person for life long but it does not happen in this way, at least in real life.
and People...oh yes, I should talk about them a lot but may be some other blogs totally dedicated to this word...but point remains true ...with time, problems come and go, good time-bad time, success, failure everything bounce back but may be not the same person come back. May be someday same people understand the value of this ...at least I try to!!!
Real life asks a lot from a person and test the individual always to gauge how much he/she can bear. Most of the people get stuck into it, some of them ignore it but who all move ahead with face up and more energy, they at least get away with it. For how long, no one knows but who wants to know?? That will be seen, taken care of, whenever it will come.
Last night I was almost closed to death, just a matter of second and I will be gone forever. No one knows, and who all know, don’t give a shit. But that is life. I feel better and thanks to god to make me aware of the last night’s incidence. It gave me an opportunity to get a better insight of myself and things around me. Seriously, one second mattered and am here writing this blog. I wish I could have had better words to make it look more effective as how I survived and how am I feeling but probably would have had no effect on the world. I would have been gone and so were lots of things with me. May be my family would have cried and remembered me for a long long time but this is life, people can not always stick to grievances. If I look at myself after I was gone, I could see some unfinished dreams, some stuffs back at flat, the same couch where my so called buddies used to hang out and pass out. Even that is anyways getting diminishing because of ‘priorities’. People don’t have time and unknowingly they try to be cool lol..that is so much of a fun to see them pretending that everything is cool. Why would I share what happened last night, they will probably want to know it in a beer bar, have some beers and say fuck that. Well sure, fuck that. I see a laptop, still open, I see a bed still having my jeans, books, cigarettes, glasses and that open window. Oh..I just love this scene outside. I hear a song. “ life is wonderful, life goes full circle, it take silence to make sound… but seriously everyone knows about it but when presented in a song, then people realize that how great it is.
May be the day when I will die ( not before 60 more years dude!!) , I will make it look like a song, hopefully people will then try to remember what just happened!!
May be it is the time, when I should generalize my cut off with everyone, I started it slowly but I guess be it slow or fast, no one notices!! Its same old beer and new buddies..:)
At least my family won't bother about anything else but seeing me alive!!
Peace!!
